A much better day :)

When I woke up today, my eyes were still puffy from crying yesterday, but as soon as I gulped down a coffee and my wonderfully healthy breakfast I began to feel a lot better! As the day went on I went to a doctor's appointment, signed up for a course, went shopping for more healthy grub, my mood began to increase for the better. What I realized I was feeling for the first time in a long long time was a total calm that washed right over me, now I'm not a hyper kind of person, not at all and to say I'm laid back is an understatement! But I haven't felt this kind of peaceful, carefree calm for many years, which lead me to believe what happened yesterday was absolutely the right thing to do.

It's so difficult to see the truth for what it is when your in a relationship and the signs that pop up on regular occasions that we some times choose to ignore. Throughout our 4 year relationship these warning signs were there for me and him to see, but we chose to follow the wrong path. I think we both did it out of hope that it would work due to sincere affection for each other, but there were major signs earlier on that made it clear that we where both two very different pea's unable to fit into any shaped pod! I'm not saying this was an abusive relationship, none whatsoever, but if we both would have listened to our inner voices I'm pretty sure we would have heard "Turn around and walk away now, NOW!"

So, if I walk away with anything it will be with hope for a future friendship with my ex and to listen with ears wide open to my inner guidance, the only trouble is the heart's voice always speaks a lot louder! My friends have been calling me for support which is great, I'm so lucky to have the close group of people I have the luxury of calling friends. A girlie's night out has been planned for the near future, play on Cyndi Lauper's "Girls just wanna have fun"!

Even though I only broke up with my boyfriend yesterday, I still had no urge to binge eat, which still boggles my mind, but it's a good kind of boggling!! In the past I would have used any excuse to "use", as food is my drug, but thanks to my Higher Power I am able to go through life's mishaps without shovelling mounds off food down my gullet. I know this is a 24 hour thing, so today I am thankful that these 24 hours have been sane.

Down the hatch:-

Breakfast: 1/2 cup oatmeal, 1tbsp bee-pollen, 1tbsp flax seed, 1 scoop of protein powder, 1/2 cup mixed berries, large glass of water & cup of coffee.

Lunch: water packed tuna, salad of lettuce, spinach, cucumbers, splash lemon juice and mixed herbs, handful of dried fruit and a few nuts, large glass of water & herbal tea.

Snack: 2 brown rice cakes with humus spread on top and 1 apple, large glass of water.

Dinner: Lean ground turkey, 1/2 cup canned no sodium tomato's, 1/2 zucchini, handful of fresh spinach,garlic, herbs, all cooked together in skillet, super yummy! Large glass of water and a cup of tea.

Activity: None it was a rest day!

So folks I shall sign off feeling much better, mentally and physically, remember to follow your inner guide, it never let's you down! Take care until tomorrow, have a good one.